The saucy singer confesses all in his book, Feel - due out on September 1.
"She was really sweet," he writes. "Got a little bit of a crush, actually."
When he finds out she's married, he says: "Doesn't stop me having a crush. I can put it her in a box that says, 'Lovely woman, great t*ts'. She looks a bit Readers' Wives as well."
But in his most impressive revelation, Robbie tells about the time he counted 15 of his conquests in the FHM Top 100 Women list!
He also divulges that he has slept with most of his female friends "save the mingers, obviously".
Robbie, 30, goes on reveal how he once filled out The Great FHM Man Test... with some less than surprising results.
The Rock DJ star confesses to sleeping with more than 21 women (the highest option offered and probably only the tip of the iceberg), having a threesome even before he was famous, giving women multiple orgasms (well, that's what they told him), and convincing one women to lapdance for him in his living room and another to dress up in his fantasy costume.
And these are just the printable answers...
(The MIRROR)
SHES THE ONE FOR ROB
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IT'S not Nicole Appleton, Rachel Hunter, Anna Friel or Tania Strecker. In fact, the girl of Robbie Williams' dreams is ... his childhood sweetheart. The millionaire singer dated pretty Rachael Gilson during his teenage years in Stoke-on-Trent. And in his revealing new autobiography Feel, out next Wednesday, he admits he is still besotted with her more than 15 years on.
Robbie has famously dated some of the world's most beautiful and glamorous women - but he says it is former flame Rachael who fills his dreams every night. He says in the book: "She was first, you know." At one point he even uses the pages to talk to Rachael directly: "I'd ride six miles on my mountain bike to come and see you - which I did." Robbie, now 30, adds: "She had a short black haircut pretty much like mine now, but a bit longer.
"I'm still very fond of Rachael. I think there's like a 'we can possibly still get it on' kind of thing. "She loves me. She's just the sweetest, most unassuming, nice-natured, good-hearted, prettiest thing in Stoke-on-Trent." Alas for lonely Robbie, Rachael had a boyfriend when the book was written late last year. But he insists: "She doesn't love him as much as me."
The troubled star enjoyed a fleeting, carefree romance with Rachael - now 29 - when they were in their mid-teens. He tells how he would visit her house in Stoke and hang out. On sunny days they would play tennis. Rachael was a promising musician from an early age and even helped Robbie to learn a couple of chords on the guitar. She also taught him how to play Prince's song The Cross - a track Robbie had never heard before.
The pair split in 1989 when Rachael moved to Manchester to start a modelling career. Robbie had just joined Take That and was about to become part of pop history. Despite high-profile romances with Geri Halliwell, Tania Strecker, Nicole Appleton, Anna Friel, Rachel Hunter and, most recently, new girlfriend Valerie Cruz, he has never been able to shake off his feelings for Rachael.
He even penned a romantic song about her concerning the innocence of teenage love - Win Some, Lose Some.
The lyrics include the lines:
She touched my face and called me her lover,
I never thought that I'd need another,
Now it's gone, now it's gone
Robbie included it on his second multi-million selling album I've Been Expecting You. Today their lives could not be more different. While Robbie lives alone in his sprawling Los Angeles mansion, Rachael is a part-time model with the Nemesis Agency in Manchester.
She enjoys a busy social life and lives with two male pals in the Withington area of the city. Last night Rachael said she was touched by Robbie's dedication to her but remained coy about their romance and did not want to comment on his feelings for her. Elsewhere in the autobiography Robbie reveals he went on secret dates with Hollywood stunner Cameron Diaz. He also talks about his feelings after he lost out to Justin Timberlake in the battle for her heart.
Wann er wo mit wem gepoppt hat, interessiert mich ja irgendwie leider GAR nicht mehr... Und was anderes steht scheinbar da nicht drin.
NEWS OF THE WORLD
Robbie: My lust for sleazy sex with my fans and call girls
By Mike Hamilton and Lewis Panther
HE'S been linked with some of the world's most beautiful women, but wildman Robbie Williams prowled seedy strip joints looking for lap-dancers to bed.
And the man who dated stunning Nicole Kidman and drop-dead-gorgeous Rachel Hunter pleaded with a porn star to have sex with him during filming of a pop video.
Robbie, 30, only stopped dabbling with hookers after he invited two call girls to an LA hotel room—and heard one of them cocking a GUN.
And, the News of the World can reveal, Robbie even seduced fans of Irish boyband Westlife.
The Angels singer craved lap-dancers but was racked with guilt after he had sex with them. Explaining how he trawled strip clubs for sexual targets, he writes in his new book: "The t***y monster gets on my shoulder. I need to take her home and f*** her. Then I do. And then I feel genuinely sorry for her predicament."
And there's another shock for the millions of fans who saw Robbie romp with two porn stars in his Come Undone video.
For there was a lot more going on under the sheets.
The steamy promo, filmed at Robbie's Los Angeles mansion last year, shows him having a threesome with two girls who then transform into men.
The News of the World has obtained exclusive extracts of Robbie's book which tell how he warned director Jonas Akerlund he would get so aroused during filming he should keep his pants on.
He added: "I was thinking some of the sex stuff in there should be performed."
Asked if he meant full sex, Robbie said: "I was thinking of oral."The star also asked the blonde porn star on the video shoot to sleep with him during a break.
She turned him down but Robbie still got frisky on set.
He said: "There was lots of naked breast touching, them two kissing, us three kissing together. And then the lads." Asked if he kept his pants on during filming, Robbie said: "I did, yeah. They didn't. I had a quick fiddle. Both of them."
In the end, two versions of the video were shot, one clean and one X-rated,which was banned by many TV stations.
Keili Olsen, one of the male actors involved, said: "Robbie started going for it before they even loaded the film. There was about half an hour of fairly intense activity."
In his book, the singer talks frankly about lusting after strippers and prostitutes.
He once described a perfect evening as "lots of tequila and two strippers". But one night in the Shutters On The Beach Hotel in Santa Monica in 1998 was to be his last with prostitutes. Robbie, who was taking drugs and boozing heavily at the time, called an escort agency.
Two hookers arrived at his room, with one explaining the other was a new girl who wanted to see how things worked.
Robbie paid the first girl 400 dollars (about £225) but, as she lay on top of him, she demanded more money. The other girl then went into the bathroom and Robbie heard the "ckkk-ckkkk-ckkk" sound of a gun being primed.
He said: "I'm looking at this girl and thinking, ‘I'm going to die'." The terrified star had no more cash but both girls eventually left. "And that's my career with hookers," concluded Robbie.
The star also admitted to bedding young groupies. One Swiss-Israeli fan barely spoke before stripping off and letting him have his wicked way with her.
But the singer later complained that the sex "felt like surgery...an automated procedure".
He wasn't so disappointed when he found himself in a bar packed with Westlife fans.
The girls were moaning that the Irish hunks were ignoring them, so Robbie took two of the "prettiest ones" back to his hotel room.
They all spent the night together but in the morning the girls were filled with regret. Robbie told his pals afterwards: "It was nice. One of them got semi-naked but she couldn't kiss and the other one got instantly guilty about it all."
Despite his many conquests, Robbie now says that he wants to become a family man. Last December at a launch party for his Australian tour in a lap-dancing club he said: "I'm looking for a missus. I've partied like not many other people have partied but it's time for me to settle down and have children."
I LOST CAMERON TO GREEK GOD JUSTIN Robbie reveals torment as rival wins over beauty
By Heather Greenaway
ROBBIE WILLIAMS has spoken of his heartache at Justin Timberlake nicking his dream girl Cameron Diaz.
The millionaire pop star dated the beauty before she was swept off her feet by R& B singer Justin, who Robbie describes as a 'Greek God'. The revelations appear in the singer's second autobiography, Feel, which goes on sale on Wednesday.
A close friend of the singer said: 'Robbie has had a crush on Cameron from the first moment he laid eyes on her.
'They get on really well and have fun when they get together but she has never wanted anything more than a friendship. Robbie was heartbroken when Cameron started dating Justin Timberlake.
'It has taken him some time to come to terms with the situation.'
The new autobiography is the sequel to Robbie's first book, Somebody Someday.
In the follow-up, Robbie reveals that he went on secret dates with Diaz and writes in depth about the battle for her heart.
The 30-year-old heart-throb tried to woo Cameron, 31, in 2003, when they spent an afternoon go- karting in Berlin. Robbie was in Germany as part of his European tour, while the actress was there for the premiere of Charlie's Angels 2.
They met up in the bar of the Four Seasons Hotel - and immediately hit it off.
But Cameron soon hooked up with pop star Justin - who used to date pop princess Britney Spears - and they have been together for 18 months.
Friends say they are still madly in love. They were spotted enjoying a full on snog on a beach in Hawaii last October.
Robbie - famous for massive hits such as Rock DJ and Angels - said: 'I have a crush on Cameron Diaz.'
Robbie has also claimed he felt he couldn't compete with 'Greek God' Timberlake, famous for hits such as I'm Lovin' It and Like I Love You. Robbie was so infatuated with Diaz he included the beauty in the lyrics of one of his songs.
He sings the blonde beauty's praises in the first verse of I Will Talk, Hollywood Will Listen, from his hit album Swing When You're Winning. The lyrics are: 'Cameron Diaz give me a sign, I'd make you smile all the time.Your conversation would complement mine.'
Robbie's red-top revenge. Or how a star got his own back on the paparazzi
By Anthony Barnes, Arts and Media Correspondent
29 August 2004
Robbie Williams has revealed for the first time how he faked a series of photographs, including a famous picture of the singer cavorting with the model Rachel Hunter, in an effort to fool the press and cheat the paparazzi he loathes.
Williams, currently the most bankable star in British music, is fiercely protective of his private life and has, in effect, left the UK to avoid the attentions of photographers who used to besiege his home in London's Notting Hill.
But he has now admitted in a new biography that he faked shots in which he frolicked by a pool, wearing just a towel around his waist, with Hunter, who was topless. The images were bought by the News of the World and appeared on the paper's front page in June 2003. Money raised from the sale of the pictures - which ran into hundreds of thousands of pounds - was donated to charity by Williams.
He even admits mocking up pictures that would have given the impression he was gay, but he destroyed the photographs.
The plan was to manipulate the press and sell images that were so over the top that there would be little demand in future for anything less racy. However, Williams says he has since had huge regrets about the episode.
"I felt really dirty. I felt it was a huge, huge mistake. I thought 'what must people think of me?'," he said.
He makes his admission in a new book, Feel, written by the journalist Chris Heath, who spent two years with the singer chronicling his recent life through a series of candid interviews.
In the book, he discusses his well-chronicled battles with drink and drug addiction, including a brief flirtation with heroin.
Williams also talks about how his friend Sir Elton John checked him into a clinic to help him with his problems back in the days when he performed with the boy band Take That, which he left in 1995. He has also used anti-depressants to cope with his unease with global fame.
His discussion of the tabloid press in the book sheds most light on the unhappiness his success has brought.
He claims he is being used as "a pawn in the game they're playing with me, I'm not a human being, you know?
"What you are actually dealing with is the devil, I believe. You're actually dealing with people who want to see you die. I'm a competitive person ... and if I think that someone's got the upper hand on me in any way I want to find a way to beat them."
His photoshoot with Hunter was a bid to do just that. Williams hatched the plan after his friendship with Hunter, the estranged wife of Rod Stewart, became public knowledge when they were pictured together.
"I said, look, if we give them what they want - exactly what they want - then there'll be no call for them. If we give them everything, they won't hang out and there'll be no money for it."
He and Hunter "got excited like schoolkids" when they discussed it, he recalled, and the next day his management arranged for the shots to be taken. They were then touted as genuine paparazzi shots, and the proceeds were given to charity.
Williams then went a step further. He had long been dogged by rumours that he was homosexual, and he decided to pose emerging from a gay shop holding hands with a male friend.
"My thinking behind it all was if I flood the market with loads of stuff they won't know what to trust, therefore they'll stop taking pictures."
He eventually gotcold feet about the gay pictures and they were destroyed.
His distrust of the press is partly behind his decision to decamp to Los Angeles. While living in London he would find a pack of photographers outside his home at all hours.
The day I was 'kidnapped' by Elton John
A no-holds-barred biography of Britain's favourite pop star will be the year's most startling entertainment read. Author Chris Heath has spent years in Williams's world and saw his binge-driven adventures. Here the singer tells how a cry for help brought more support than he wanted
Sunday August 29, 2004
On the plane to Austria, Robbie reads in various newspapers that he is appearing in the play One Night Only ('Bollocks,' he points out), that he has 'made no secret of his desire to act' ('Bollocks'), that he has taken acting lessons at the Lee Strasberg Institute ('Bollocks') and that he was recently seen driving down the M1 with his father ('Bollocks'). He tosses them away: 'I'll have to tell you the Elton John kidnapping story...
'I got a pang of guilt not long ago,' says Rob. 'Elton tried to do a lot for me and I didn't thank him enough.' Pause. 'But what he did was really weird.'
To understand fully the Elton John kidnapping story, an earlier episode must first be described. Take That had split the year before and Rob had just broken up with his girlfriend at the time, Jacqui Hamilton-Smith. His first solo hit, 'Freedom', had been out, but he was yet to find any stability or direction in his life.
'So I was in a right pickle anyway,' he remembers, 'and I'd just been through the worst year for drug intake that I ever had - 1995/96. I woke up one afternoon after being up all night and I knew I was fucked, you know. My bedroom was a pigsty and there were about four bowls of cornflakes dried up with cigarette butts in all of them, and that's how my head felt. Natural instinct kicked in to save myself and I opened my Filofax and went: "Right ..."'
He flicked through the pages and saw Elton John's number. They'd met when Rob was in Take That and he had been to stay a couple of times with Elton.
'Elton was very nice and a gracious host and very supportive of us and lovely,' Rob says. The visits also planted the idea in Rob's head that Elton might be a good man to call when you were in this kind of mess.
'I rang up and I just went,' "I need help",' he says. 'Elton was in Atlanta, and he said, "Go to my house". So I went to his house in Windsor. I'd sort of thought that I'd wanted to get clean or stop drinking - little did I realise that I hadn't really had enough, and probably wouldn't have enough for another five years. And Elton made sure that I was all right at his house and sent me a care package over - loads of Nike stuff in a box. I hadn't brought any clothes with me and I'd put weight on and I looked a dreadful mess and I felt awful.'
He spent two weeks there, 'drying out and pottering around, rattling around Elton's big house'. Elton called every day to see how he was. He also called Beechy Colclough, the therapist who has become semi-famous as a celebrity addiction specialist and media pundit. This, Rob would come to see as less of a gift.
'He came and made me his case for that two weeks. But he did an awful lot of weird things.' One of the first things Colclough said to him was: 'You see this watch - Elton bought me that,' and for Rob that coloured everything.
But, that aside, he had reached out to Elton John when he was desperate and Elton had been there for him. 'It was such a nice thing for him to do,' says Rob. 'Such an amazing thing for him to do. But I didn't feel good enough and felt intimidated by it all. The upshot of it is, Elton's really, really generous, really wanting me to be well, and I really, really thank him for it.'
Nonetheless, after two weeks, Rob left and stepped back on to the same merry-go-round. 'I must have decided that I was bored,' he says, 'and I decided that now I was well enough to go and batter myself over the head again, which I subsequently did.'
Nine months later...
I've found Guy , we've written the album, I'm in the studio, I'm in a very, very bad way, you know. And I was supposed to hook up with Elton one afternoon to play him the tracks we've been doing, and this was a week before I was going to rehab. I'd got a week to finish four vocals, I think it was. I know for a fact that one was 'Lazy Days', I know one was 'Angels', I can't remember the other two. I've already tried to sing 'Lazy Days', I've already tried 'Angels' and, frankly, it just wasn't good enough. You can see, there's video footage of me singing it and I'm drinking red wine out of the bottle as I'm singing it - that's the reason why it wasn't good enough. So, I was supposed to go and play Elton these songs.
I wake up in Notting Hill, and I'm on my way to the studio in Fulham Road, in a black cab, calling at maybe five pubs on the way, with the car waiting outside. Lager. pints. In the end I pulled up at the pub opposite Chelsea's ground, and with the studio in eyeshot I just stayed in the pub and got pissed with some people that were working on the Chelsea Village - builders. We played pool and I got fucking hammered. And then I got to the studio, walked in and fell asleep under the mixing desk. Woke up, took the tape, after doing no work, and went to Elton's house. Five or six o'clock, maybe later - it was in summer, it may have been seven or eight o'clock.
So I walk through his door - not in Windsor, his pad in London - and I've got this tape in my hand and I'm pissed...' ... "I've got this to play you!" And he went, "Do you want a drink?" And I said, "I'll have a spritzer." Because spritzer at the time was the drink that I was drinking that wasn't alcohol. I'd drink spritzer because it's less fattening and there's no alcohol in it. Yeah, you figure it out.
But I can't detox today...
And Elton had a tear in his eye looking at me, and I saw his tear and I started to cry too. You know. And he went, "You've got to go to rehab right now." And I went: "I know." And I started to cry and he started to cry. And he said, "I'm going to organise it," and I went, "OK," so he's off on the phone. As he's phoning, I go in and go, "I've got to finish the album. I've got to finish the album." And he said, "You're going to die - you need to go now." So there was lots of to-ing and fro-ing with me going, "I can't go, nobody knows where I am, people'll be worried about me and I've got an album to finish."
So after to-ing and fro-ing and crying every time that he said, "You've got to go," I got in a car with David Furnish, Elton got in his car and we drove to Windsor. So I'm in this car, on my way to Windsor, one half of me's really happy because somebody's looking after me, the other half is really fucking petrified a) because I've got to finish an album, because I'm going to rehab anyway, and c) no one knows where I am. So we get to Elton's and I can remember really realising the situation that I was in as I was eating some food, realising that I was terribly pissed when I arrived at Elton's, it wasn't a good idea, and in the morning I'll wake up and I'll say: "Thank you very much for helping me. I've got a terrible hangover, but there's things that I need to do before I go to rehab."
So I went to bed, and that's what I was thinking: "In the morning I'll apologise profusely." Because I was already fucking full of guilt and embarrassment. I'm lying on the bed and I hear, "Rob! Rob!" and I open one eye and I just see five sets of legs. I see riding boots, jodhpurs, and this is me hungover and I don't know where I am, and it's David Furnish and it's Elton and it's three men I don't know, and they're all looking at me. And I think: "Oh fuck, I've really done it now."
I was told that this was Dr such-and-such, this is Mr such-and-such and this is Mr such-and-such. One was from the detox clinic.
So we all go downstairs and we're sat in Elton's main room on these two massive sofas facing each other. I'm on one sofa by myself and the rest are all sat opposite me, and Elton's perched on the side. And, bless him, to all intents and purposes there was a lot of sense in what he was doing and he thought he was doing me a favour.
And in many ways he was. But I'm going: "Look, I can't go into detox today and I can't go to rehab - I've got vocals to finish." And I'm doing this and I'm going like that ...' '... and one of them went, "Well, you've got cocaine psychosis now - that's a symptom, what you're doing there." And reluctantly, because I could see the sense in going to rehab now, I went off to the detox clinic.
It was a burgundy-coloured Citroën that we got in, and there was David and Elton at the door of his house, waving. There were two people in the back of the car sandwiching me in, the other was driving and the front seat was free. Presumably so that I wouldn't try to commit suicide or run off. So I'm looking out the back of this Citroën, waving to Elton, who's got one hand over his mouth, and David waving. God bless 'em. And off we went into London.
I hadn't got a clue where we were going, I didn't know what a detox centre was. I didn't know particularly why I had to go there. And I didn't know what was happening to me. So off we went into London, into the centre and then over the water. I found myself at this big private clinic opposite this war memorial with two cannons - that's all I can remember.
I walked in and the receptionist looks up at me, and they were so snooty in there, you know, so very, very snooty. I can remember her looking at me like I was shit, and me having to sign my name, and off we went upstairs. And my room's got bars on the windows and outside the window is just a brick wall about four feet away from the window. I sit on my bed, and it's one of those beds with the plastic on so you don't piss yourself. And in reality I'd just got a massive hangover. That's what I was having.
Heroin, Ecstasy and coke...
When I did eventually go to rehab I didn't detox, I didn't take any pills. I didn't get the DTs, they didn't have to wean me off anything, I'd just got a problem with my drinking. But here I'd just drank too much and I'd accumulated a massive hangover. So I sat down and this rather stern, big... not a Hattie Jacques kind of character ... she comes in and I'm really treated like I'm a naughty, naughty boy. Really naughty. There's no love or care or, "You're going to be cool, everything's cool, you're in the right place." There was none of that at all. They said, "Write down what you're addicted to," so I wrote it all down, everything that I'd ever taken - heroin, ecstasy, marijuana, cocaine, alcohol, amyl nitrate, speed. And England were playing Poland that day and it was on Channel 5 and the hospital hadn't got Channel 5. Now there was no way I was going to stay after that - that was the straw that broke the camel's back. But in the meantime they'd given me a liquid cosh. So now I'm trying to get out of this detox centre...
Robbie called a friend, who turned up with Robbie's therapist and got him out. Rob went and got some sushi and then watched the football and fell asleep. 'And I felt so happy that I could finish the album, not die, and go to rehab,' he remembers. And then, the following week, once he had finished recording the album and had one monumental final bender in the studio, he headed off to the rehab he wanted to be in, Clouds in Wiltshire.
Outside his house there were a few paparazzi and one film crew. 'I'm actually quite upset,' Rob told them. 'When Michael Barrymore went to rehab there was thousands of you outside his house.'
After a brief stop at Stonehenge, he checked into Clouds and started to get healthy. There were no TV or radio or tabloids there, but there were copies of the broadsheets, and one day he was astonished to pick one up and read, in an article about him, 'Robbie Williams, who lists his addictions as...', and the list appeared just as he had written it going into the first detox centre.
'All's I can say is this, is that on the road to getting well and on the road to trying to sort my life out, there's an awful lot of fucking charlatans out there, and they're sick, and they are actually dealing with sick people that actually genuinely want to be well, and it boils my fucking blood,' summarises Rob. 'I'm sure that does happen to other people, and I'm sure they die.'
'So, from that,' he says, 'Elton sort of tried to do what he thought was best, and obviously came from a very loving place. But the whole thing for me is tarnished with the lack of professionalism, even though Elton came from a place of love.'
They haven't really spoken since. About a year later Elton wanted him to do a duet on an album that already had the Backstreet Boys and LeAnn Rimes on it, and Rob declined. 'Anything near a boy band I didn't want to be associated with because I was desperately trying to break away from it, so I said I didn't want to do it. I think it really upset him.'
ps: ...cameron...wenn ich ne flasche wein nachmittags schon intus habe, dann hab ich auch mit robbie spass. so ist es ja nicht.
wir wissen ja wie es war!
Er offensichtlich nicht... %)
SUNDAY PEOPLE
ROBBIE'S SECRET GAY LOVER
Aug 29 2004
Sex romp in nightclub - Gay dancer tells of steamy frolic with megastar on eve of a 'girls only' life story
By Claire Collins
POP superstar Robbie Williams passionately kissed A MAN in a nightclub - and then asked for more.
Hunky dancer Nathan Conroy says he had a sex romp with Robbie after the steamy snog.
Nathan - the first gay to sensationally speak out about the mystery surrounding the 30-year-old singer's sexuality - told The People: "Robbie kissed me like I had never been kissed before.
"It was powerful and passionate. It left no doubt in my mind that he is into men in a big way."
Nathan, 31, has spoken just days before the mega-star publishes his autobiography Feel in which he details frankly his affairs with a string of women - but does not mention the MEN.
The dancer revealed how Robbie...
BEGGED him for sex in a nightclub toilets.
SPURNED the advances of a beautiful girl and instead chose to kiss Nathan.
SHOWED experience in gay sex.
NEVER hid his man-to-man liaisons from his friends.
Nathan, who is also a session singer and has worked with the Spice Girls, said: "Robbie is gay and those close to him know it but he is being suppressed and not allowed to come out.
"It's very sad and the pressure is beginning to show. His drink and drugs problems are telling signs that he is so unhappy that he can't be himself. I feel very sorry for him."
Speculation over Robbie's sexuality have been rife since his days with the record-breaking boy band Take That.
The star has done little to play down his alleged gay tendencies, often openly confessing to finding men attractive and hinting that he is bisexual.
He once announced on Tops of The Pops: "Tomorrow I will be coming out as homosexual so get in there while you can, girls."
And when dismissing an alleged romance with ex-Spice Girl Geri Halliwell he told reporters: "I'm gay anyway."
And speaking last year in US gay magazine The Advocate he admitted to wanting to bed American actor The Rock.
He said: "I'd love him to throw me about a bit. He's quite brutish and hot, don't you think?"
Nathan, from Glossop, Derbyshire, met Robbie at a gay event at Manchester's legendary Hacienda club.
The singer was riding high on the international fame of Take That and the band were regular faces on the Northern gay scene.
Nathan said: "It never occurred to me that he was straight. He was so outrageous. He was one of the campest boys around and dressed and acted gay.
"At the Hacienda Robbie and the band sat behind where I was dancing.
"I suppose I fancied him but I was so used to celebrities I didn't take any more notice of him than I would of any good-looking bloke.
"I used to dance in one hour intervals and then hang around the toilet with my friends.
"I know that sounds weird but things were never normal on the club scene. There would be people dancing, singing and chatting in there. It was a respite from the very warm and loud club.
"I was leaning against a sink when Robbie walked in wearing an unbuttoned baggy white shirt with big cuffs - very gay.
"He went to one of the cubicles, turned around, looked straight in my eye and beckoned me to go with him. I didn't think twice."
Robbie, then aged 20 and Nathan, 21 kissed passionately and performed sex acts on each other. Their moans could be heard by Nathan's friends.
Nathan said: "Even though I was slightly older than Robbie, I was very inexperienced. He wasn't.
"He took the lead. The kissing was so powerful. It was full on." What happened next proved to Nathan that Robbie preferred men.
He said: "My extremely good-looking female friend came into the cubicle and started playing with Robbie's hair.
"He pushed her out and turned his attention back to me.
"If he was more attracted to women than men, then he would have gone for her. All men did, but not Robbie."
The pair remained in the cubicle for at least 20 minutes. Nathan says Robbie begged to have full gay sex but he refused.
Nathan said: "I was young and new to the whole gay thing. Robbie definitely wasn't."
When the club closed the singer gave Nathan his phone number written on EMI record company paper. Nathan later discovered Robbie had given him the wrong number.
But that didn't deter the pop star from trying for a repeat performance when they bumped into each other again a year later at Manchester's Paradise Factory club.
Nathan said: "He maybe seemed a bit shy but spoke like we were old friends.
"He said in my ear, 'I need to talk to you,' and indicated for us to go to the nearby toilets.
"I had begun seeing someone else so told him I wasn't interested.
"I walked off but my friend remained speaking to him. He later told me that Robbie had tried it on with him as well. My friend also refused.
"I later saw Robbie disappear with another bloke down the dark streets at the back of the Paradise Factory. It was obvious what was going on."
The star, who is now dating Cuban Nip/Tuck actress Valerie Cruz in Los Angeles, talks frankly in his autobiography out this Wednesday about his relationships with women.
He says he lost his virginity to his childhood sweetheart Rachael Gilson in his home-town Stoke-on-Trent when he was 17.
Robbie also speaks about his string of famous girlfriends, including All Saints singer Nicole Appleton who aborted their baby because of their rocky relationship.
But apart from admitting an interest in men, Robbie does not discuss any gay encounters. Nathan said: "It's very sad that Robbie has turned out like he has. He doesn't seem at all happy.
"He has been suppressed and the ramifications of that are now beginning to show.
"He looks a mess - he looks like a lost unhappy individual.
"It's very telling that none of his relationships with women has lasted.
"He is now dating another actress in LA. It won't last. It's all for show.
"Deep down he is gay. Robbie and I were completely comfortable with each other. He was the more dominant one and knew what he wanted.
"That's not the behaviour of a man who's is experimenting for fun. It was for real."
ROBBIE'S GIRL TELLS OF SECRET PASSION
Aug 29 2004
EXCLUSIVE
Exlusive By Simon Wright
A CHILDHOOD sweetheart revealed by Robbie Williams as the one true love of his life broke her silence for the first time last night, declaring: "We were in love back then and we're still in love today."
In an exclusive interview, model-turned-singer Rachael Gilson, 29, - who is named in Robbie's new autobiography - spoke for the first time about her love for the multi-millionaire singer.
She said: "It's true, I am the love of Robbie's life and he is the love of mine.
"If Rob asked me to settle down with him and have his babies, I'd drop whatever I was doing, wherever I was doing it. I would be at his side in a flash.
"That won't surprise him because he knows it. We've talked about it. It's crazy. We know we should do it, but that 'something' neither of us understands always seems to stop us.
"I'm sure it will always be that way. We're as close now as we've always been, but for some reason we can't make it work properly.
"I don't know why and neither does he. We've talked about it often."
Rachael said she saw Robbie "quite recently". She added: "I'm not saying exactly when because that's bound to cause people to wonder if it was during a period when he was supposed to be seeing someone."
Rachael was speaking from the home she shares with her mum Margaret in Stoke-on-Trent, Staffs, where she and Robbie grew up together.
They dated as teenagers and split shortly after Robbie joined Take That.
She went on: "I guess all of us have a love of our lives out there who we don't end up marrying or being with properly.
"I suppose ours is a tragic love affair. There is something special between us, but for some reason we can't make it work properly. He knows I love him and I know he loves me.
"Why aren't we an item? Who knows. I know I'll never know and I think Rob feels the same way."
She went on: "I think about him a lot and he will always be there, in the back of my mind, no matter what the future holds for me or for him. I'm single now, and he knows that, but we're not together so that must tell you something.
"We speak to each other once every few weeks but he has his own life to lead and I have mine.
"To everyone else he's Robbie, but I know him as Robert. They are two different people.
"Most people probably think they know Robbie really well because outwardly he's always been an open book. But the Robert I know is entirely different.
"It looks like he's with Valerie (Cruz) now anyway, although that's probably a bit of a rock 'n roll relationship rather than anything permanent.
"The truth is, I don't know what the future holds for Rob nor what he wants from a relationship. I don't think he knows himself either.
"When he wrote his book I was with someone. In the book he says I love him more than that person. Well, he's right. I'm not with that boyfriend anymore, but that has nothing to do with Rob.
"What can I say? Rob's the love of my life. That doesn't mean I'm going to end up being with him for the rest of my life. We're close so I'm reluctant to talk about him in any detail. I'd never say anything that would hurt him.
"It was a shock to be told he'd talked about me in his book. He's never mentioned me before and to be honest I thought that what we had was our little secret.
"That's what we always told each other. Now it seems he's decided he wants to talk about me, which is fine.
"Perhaps he felt that if he was going to do an auto- biography, he wanted to be totally open and honest.
"There's a chemistry between us which is hard to explain. At the end of the day, he's a lovely guy and I only want the best for him."
Robbie William's auto- biography, Feel, goes on sale on Wednesday.
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ROBBIE IN HIS OWN WORDS
ON SEX
I shouted 'oh Peter' in bed
ROBBIE reveals in his new book how he out, "Oh Peter", while making love to his first girlfriend.
The star embarrassed himself when the girl called Natasha performed an intimate act on him. Robbie's former band Take That had just been on tour with D:ream, a dance pop group featuring Peter Cunnah and best known for the song Things Can Only Get Better.
"Natasha and I were just getting down to it," says Robbie. "I fell asleep - after nine shows on the trot I was knackered. I was chatting to Peter in my dream and asked him whether we had gone down well, and then I said, "Oh Peter".
ON DRUGS
How I took E in a gay club
ROBBIE still doesn't know how much Take That earned because it is all a bit of a drug-induced blur: "I had a five hundred grand cheque once," he says. "I snorted cocaine with it."
He recalls recording the vocal for Everything Changes But You and smoking about 20 cannabis joints in 12 hours.
Robbie first took ecstasy in Madrid after Take That had just appeared on their first TV show abroad with The Village People.
Afterwards they all went to a gay club where Robbie was given a pink ecstasy tablet.
"It was phenomenal," he says. But by the time he got back to his hotel the effects were wearing off and he recalls being "horny and alone".
ON TAKE THAT AND GARY
My hatred for Take That boss
ROBBIE'S violent loathing for both former manager Nigel Martin-Smith and bandmate Gary Barlow shows no sign of diminishing.
Robbie doesn't hide his hatred for Martin-Smith, whom he calls "spawn of Satan".
He describes how the Take That manager destroyed his confidence and told people he was gay.
"When I first went into Take That I thought I could do everything, but I left thinking I could do nothing."
Right from the start, the manager frightened the young singer: "I can just remember being s***-scared of Nigel and I really wanted him to like me."
And Robbie is convinced that Nigel hated him: "He'd divide and conquer. He gave us all a bad time - Jason (Orange) in particular, and me."
Robbie recalls the early days. He says: "When I used to go to the toilet - the lads told me - Nigel used to go, 'I f****** hate that Robbie, we should sack him'.
"He was the person, I believe, in my life that f****d with my head, and I just didn't have the facilities to deal with it."
And after years of bitter rivalry with Gary Barlow, Robbie is still very angry that Barlow was considered the talented one in Take That while he was just there to make up the numbers.
Asked if he would feel better if he wrote Gary a letter, Robbie says: "No. I'd feel better if I kicked his f****** head in.
"Actually, when I said I'd like to kick his head in, that came from just being unhappy, scared, and having no one to talk to."
I Am Not Gay and I’ll Sue over Sex Claim Robbie Williams
Robbie Williams hit out at reports that he had a sex romp with Nathan Conroy.
The singer is apparently taking legal action after a Sunday Newspaper ran the allegations
According to reports today friends of Robbie have said that the former Take That star now in a solo career is absolutely livid at these suggestions.
The friend is reported as saying that Robbie has always held up his hands when stories are published about him that are true, but in this case it is completely untrue and he is determined to stand up for himself.
According to the allegations the episode took place ten years ago when Take That were enjoying success at the top of the charts.
Robbie is currently dating Nip/Tuck actress Valerie Cruz, after a string of romances that include Rachel Hunter and Cameron Diaz, as well as earlier romances with Geri Halliwell.
These sorts of accusations unfortunately are par for the course for the successful, as sections of the media attempt to boost sales of their various publications by latching onto ludicrous stories. - :~ was ein schock...
ROBBIE Williams reckons he could have made Cameron Diaz a very happy woman - but she Bungled it.
The pop super-hunk reveals in his new book Feel, which is out today, that he'd fancied gorgeous Cam for ages but when he met her he thought she looked like Zippy from 70s kids' programme Rainbow.
The 30-year-old says: "She looks a bit like Zippy. Crush is over. I can get on with the rest of my life."
Robbie went go-karting with 32-year-old Cam last year after the pair bumped into each other in Berlin.
But rather than being swept away, Robbie thought she belonged on the kids' TV favourite alongside George and Bungle.
So you see girls, being a tall, thin, blonde multi-millionairess Hollywood star who dates Justin Timberlake doesn't guarantee you everything in life.
Meanwhile, Robbie also reveals he gave Wayne Rooney a special gift when he showed up to watch him perform at Knebworth last year.
After Rooney handed over two signed shirts, Robbie disappeared into his dressing room to find a prezzie for the England star.
"I couldn't find anything suitable so I got you a pillow,'" said Bob.
That's the kind of sleepover to give a girl nightmares...
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